I'm determined to create a post that I've been delaying for weeks and I have only 30 minutes remaining. I hate repeating, but again, I delayed writing because I had too much to write.
It's been nearly a month since my conscience came out clean and all my troubles faded. I am still able to wake up each morning refreshed, able to channel my highly unstable energy into "doing something". This "doing something" part is crucial, because most of my troubles stem from not finding anything worth "doing". Before you define me with some "ism" word, let me explain: I find every single thing special because every single thing is a part of life, but nothing sticks out from that collective "everything".
Within this peaceful month, I found that a few things actually stick out! Let me proudly summarize (as I have 15 minutes left):
* Human Mind : This blog helped me define my interest in dynamics of the human mind. I look back and see that a significant part of things I did, I did for getting deeper into the mind. I started forming a folder of resources on this, and reading related books, to became even a better empath.
* Web 2.0 : My friends would laugh out loud if they read this: "You interested in the web? Kidding?" Yes I've been spending more than half my life online, but it was just a way of life, I didn't see that most people my age weren't half interested as I was until I joined friendfeed to see that people who are at a similar depth as I am are not many. And somehow, I don't think the web's content is useless anymore. It might not be me, but it is of use to someone...
* Cinema : My friends would laugh even harder... I have devoted my past 7 years to watching movies, writing critiques, and watching some more, everyday, and every night. It's time to admit that I've been obsessive about it. It's time to write about it again. Because that's when my brain functions the best: when writing and/or teaching.
Time's up. I have tagged myself despite hating the tagging.
Remind me why I was doing things I hated doing?
Because despite loving myself, I'm experimenting being someone else.
Inspirational and Funny :)
For almost three decades, John Francis has been a planetwalker, traveling the globe by foot and sail with a message of environmental respect and responsibility (for 17 of those years without speaking). A funny, thoughtful talk with occasional banjo. John Francis walks the Earth, carrying a message of careful, truly sustainable development and respect for our planet.
Tech-savy people have common traits: they love the internet and cherish its fruits. Some were born with the internet, grew up with it, formed a consistent character in it. Their minds can adjust to anything that relates to being connected in a very short time, because that's how their minds were constructed in the first place: unbeliveably-flexible.
(Un)fortunately, the world doesn't consist of only tech-savy people. I saw many people hesitate and draw back when I teach them how to find their way on the internet, how to build a site, how to form an online-identity... I saw them sweat with anxiety, because how their minds were constructed in the first place is not valued anymore. Despite years of hard work and expertise, they find it hard to fit in to a totally new set of rules, which should be totally acceptable, but it's not.
And learning this shiny new language is not as easy as it looks. The word "SIMPLE" shines on the www-101's cover, but one cannot move far without spending significant time and effort on this. Take a look at how we spend our time online. Being stuck to online games and msn is not what this book promises us. It can only be the first tiny chapter.
Being online for the past 10 years, and working at a pretty tech savy company, even I have a hard time putting myself together on www. With much more than 100 links to discover per day, I struggle to create a bookmark hierarcy that makes my life easier than harder. Creating content, finding out new things to find out, watching people expose their life, exposing my life, "creating" a new expertise and working on it, deciding what is unnecessary and making an effort to omit it, watching the www create its own superstars, watching the structure of chaos forming, taking a stand when appreciation tools are used for your advantage, taking a fall when hacking tools are used for your disadvantage... This is NOT SIMPLE.
But then, it doesn't have to be simple. We just shouldn't label it as such and work from there to welcome offline people into the game. I know I am not the only one who treats this misconception as a problem, and I know a lot of companies and some geeks are trying to simplify. My point is, it should be more simple and guidance should be provided.
People who are new to this world should be treated better. As I was thinking how I would make my way into the internet now if I hadn't met it years before, I searched for "internet" on Google and came accross an interesting site called "Internet nedir? temel kavramlar" (what is internet? the basics). Not exactly, but close to what I'm talking about... Different levels of orientation should be set for new-commers. Not that they don't already exist in "how to" websites, but they could be easier to find and follow.
Think of a big gather-up. The first time you enter the arena, without knowing where to go, you search for info-points to direct you where to go next and inform you on what you can do there right? The www should provide a similar service to smoothen the entering process.
Right, the web is supposed to be based on decentralisation and nurtures the free thinking that stems from this confusing interconnectivity, but providing (virtual or real) info hubs and orientation is the main thing that will welcome disturbed offline people in. The world population is around 6.7 billions, the online community is 1.4 billions, and there is still a long way to go.
I have set my birthdays and new year celebrations as milestones of life: times to sit back and evaluate the past, the present and take the lead for the future.
2008's birthday was over 5 hours ago. I hardly had time/space to sit down for such an evaluation at the Martin Solveig performance so now is the time.
As I prepare my psychological balance sheet for the year before, something strikes me. It's a clean record! Debit and credit numbers match! First time in history, I have no carry-over liabilities! No relationship that needs a fix, no goal unattained, no unsolved problems, no regrets, no broken-hearts, no imagined obstacles, no burdens pressing hard on my conscience... Either by elaborating and solving them, or by making myself look less appealing to them, I have left all-troublemakers and mind-invaders behind!!!
When doing this, I experienced a little more than over a billion different emotions within the past 365 days, none of them taken for granted. From these emotions, epiphanies, reasonings, I have learnt... a lot... Today, I can look a stranger in the face and hear what goes on in his/her mind. Sure I can be better but I stand a strong position on my way to being an uber-empath.
I even started a new blog to write specifically about the dynamics of the mind, but I dismissed the initiative quickly. What I know may be used for someone's disadvantage and I won't risk that. There were times when I miss-leaded sociopaths and narcissists about how to see through people so they were completely harmless when they practiced my recommendations but I need not waste much energy on this.
No carry-overs this year. Result is clear. I have what I need: only the essentials and no residuals. The thing is, headed nowhere, I am now at the crossroads. A lot of roads diverge in a yellow wood and I'll probably take the one less travelled by as I advance from "very young" to "young", then to "not so young" :)
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